Sad Day

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, but there hasn't been too much going on. We hosted a major competition at the school last weekend, so that pretty much consumed my life last week. I must tell you that I still have the most wonderful husband. He was here at the school with me on Friday until 10:00PM and back up here Saturday from 6:00AM to 9:30PM helping make sure that everything was running smoothly, and that I was not over doing it. The event was a huge success. The team profited about $14,000.00.

Today is a sad day for me. I just put my dance team on a bus to send them on their way to the airport for their Florida trip. We've known all a long that I couldn't go with them, and I have cried over it many times. I did do better than I thought I would. I only teared up a little as the bus drove away. Again, Andy was here to stand beside me as we waved goodbye to our girls. (Andy is such a huge part of my job that he feels the same about the team as I do. In fact last night he said he was sad that they were going without us.) When I first told the team I was pregnant, I allowed them to vote whether to go on the trip without me or go somewhere else earlier so I could go with them. I had been promising them Florida for two years and didn't feel that it was fair to take that away from them just because I was making a personal change (how dare a director have a personal life). The vote was 37-4, they said they would miss me, but wanted to go to Florida. I have a wonderful assistant director and friend who was and is willing to take them in my place. I have to tell you it is so hard to plan a trip that I know I am not going on. It is even harder to send my girls to Nationals and know they will be dancing without me there. This will be the last time that they dance as a team, and I will miss it. I am very sadden by this thought. I know they will do great, and I know the reward of Lyla coming will far out weigh missing this trip, but today, none of that matters. My girls, the people my life has revolved around for 4 years are leaving to dance at their last competition without me. So I just thought I would share with my family and friends my thoughts and feelings. I will be okay. I am looking forward to a relaxing spring break which brings mybest friend Tessa for a 4 day stay. Her arrival next Thursday is what is keeping me going today.

I hope today brings you all joy and happiness!