New Beginnings

This morning Andy and I attended a church here in Boerne. First Baptist Boerne to be exact. It is something that has been in the works for a while. You see it is very important to me that Andy be the spiritual leader in our family. I also have been praying to be a more submissive wife. We have discussed it time and time again. In these discussions he has brought up that he isn't being fed at Oak Hills and would like to find a church closer to home and something where he feels connected. And of course this is where I have dug my heels into the ground. I've been at Oak Hills for 13 years. It's been my home, it where our church friend are, I don't want to move.

But lately God has been impressing upon my heart that by doing this I am not allowing Andy to be the spiritual leader and I am not being a submissive wife. How can I expect change if I am not willing to change? Isn't that the definition of insanity (doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results)? Over and over God is whispering in my ear that by allowing my husband to lead us to a new church will allow him to be the spiritual leader and allow me to be a biblical wife.

Andy had suggested First Baptist before but I always turned it down. I didn't want to attend a doctrine church. I love being at a non-denominational church. Andy would tell me I should be more open minded and at least give it a chance. Many of my friends at BSF also attend First Baptist. So I would already know some people and it would open up the opportunity for Andy and I to meet other couples our age in our community. I did some research and talked to one of them and decided I was willing to give it a chance.

So this morning we got up and got ready. We dropped Lyla off at the nursery. That really pulled at my heart. I've never dropped her off anywhere accept at my parent's house. Leaving her with strangers was a little scary. Then it was off to service. And surprise, surprise we both enjoyed it. They had a contemporary worship and the pastor was great. We both think we'll go back.

So while I'm not big at making new year's resolutions, I am big on making change where change is needed. As you probably remember from my previous post I wanted to be a better wife. Hopefully it will start here. God is calling and I am answering. It's scary to leave a comfortable place, but my family needs to come first. We haven't made any decisions but at least we are keeping an open mind and allowing God to work.